Tired Of Living As An Omega

“Why did you suddenly ask to see me again?”

“Yeah.”

“Let’s stand there and talk about what we need to do first. Don’t come any further than that.”

‘This is Seo Eun-soo!’

I could tell as soon as I saw it. First of all, the visuals…… It was no joke to match the main Shou of BL novels. If I compared Seong Chan-young to an idol visual member and center, Seo Eun-soo was like a cluster of daffodils. He was as beautiful as a flower that reincarnated as a human being.

‘What kind of man has such a pure charm? Wow……. It’s a scam.’

It was the first time that a common black hair looked so good on him. What about milky skin? His lips were red, as if he had applied lip tint.

So that’s how Gongs come together like a bunch of crazy butterflies…….

Let’s see. Dominant omega. It was also the main Shou’s appearance. The keyword “beautiful” was never a waste. There was nothing missing from the big, soft eyes, well-established features, or the lean figure.

I couldn’t speak because of the shock of meeting the real main Shou, but Seo Eun-soo made a big impression.

“Are you going to say that you can’t hear me as usual?”

“Oh, no…It’s not, that’s not it. That’s not it. I can hear you well.”

This isn’t it. It has been twisted from the start. All the speeches that I had prepared in my head during the taxi ride became useless. Only robotic stuttering could be heard.

Seo Eun-soo crumpled his fine brows more, perhaps becoming angrier at my words. It was scarier because it was a pretty person blowing off the initial impression. I felt like the world’s worst garbage.

“But why aren’t you answering me?”

Wait, isn’t that the line used a lot by the obsessive maniacs?

‘If you say this, the atmosphere will be even colder.’

Thinking about the dog-drip [1] in my mind when my soul was about to escape, I barely held out the flower basket I was holding. His voice trembled terribly.

“This… This…… I brought it here to apologize.”

“What did you say?”

Heck, fuck it.

“I, I brought it to apologize! Don’t, Don’t yell at me without listening!”

Tears seemed to well up. To be honest, it was unfair. I’m angry too. 

Why do I have to transmigrate in a place like this and have to deal with the aftermath of a dog-trash [2] like guy? I am also someone’s precious child, so why do I have to live like this…….

“What are you saying…?”

Seo Eun-soo, who has lost his sense of humor, breathed in, but his body moved steadily as planned. Tears already seemed to flow down his cheeks, but I ignored them.

Thump. I knelt down in the cold hallway and bowed my head. It hurt. If I do this, I won’t be able to see his crying face. It was a shallow move.

“……I’m sorry. Seo Eun-soo ssi, I would like to sincerely apologize for bothering you so far.”

“What?”

“I texted you yesterday to apologize and came all the way here. That’s why I brought this flower basket and compensation envelope…….”

“What…”

“It’s, it’s real, so please believe me……. I won’t show up in front of you after today. If this is not enough for the stress you have experienced because of me, I will prepare a more generous reward.”

I closed my eyes tightly and remembered the hardships and trials that Seo Eun-soo experienced due to Seong Chan-young in the original work. Ugh, I can’t even talk. It was a really lame and clumsy trick.

“You can hit me, if you want.”

I laid flat on my face in front of Seo Eun-soo as much as I could. 

Compared to the conversations with the housekeeper, who was a watchman, or secretary Choi, who was like hand-foot-and-mouth, the situation was 180 degrees different [3] .

‘That’s because it’s Seo Eun Soo.’

It was no exaggeration to say that I grabbed my life line, so I didn’t have to imitate Seong Chan-young.

‘If you ruin your image even more here, you will go to hell.’

I wanted to live. Just because I tranmigrated as the vicious Seong Chan-young, YASSSSS BISH!!! LESSGOOOOOOOO

When I glanced at Seo Eun-soo’s face, he looked surprised by my attitude.

“Are you crazy? Why would I hit you? Who doesn’t know that if I hit you, you’ll call a lawyer and charge me with assault?”

Did you really do that? Damn you, Chan-young, damn it.

Why did you live like that?

“No! Really……. I really wouldn’t. I swear.”

“And why should I trust you [4] ?”

Seo Eun-soo was wary of me like a hamster who saw a human being invading his territory. For a hamster, he seemed strong in combat, but I’ll put that aside.

Someone described Seo Eun-soo as a fragile omega. If you’re really good at it, you might hit me.

“I swear on my shares of Seong Eun Group and all my wealth.”

Seo Eun-soo also showed some acceptance when he bet money, the only pride of Seong Chan-young. He took his cell phone out of his jeans pocket and showed him the recording screen.

“As you can see, I’ve recorded it, so keep that promise.”

“Recorded…?”

“Since you bother me so much, I started to do it out of habit every day you came.”

I had nothing to say when he said that. How sensitive had Seong Chan-young made him to the point where he needed to make such extensive preparations for a fictitious day?

“Well, I see.”

“By the way, stop sitting on the bare floor. Your clothes get dirty because you’re sitting on a dirty floor. In addition, a cockroach corpse rolled around there a while ago.”

“ Oh my god! [5] “

Mr. B [6] ! Mr. B [7] that I hate so much!

I jumped up like a spring and hid behind Seo Eun-soo, shivering. He grabbed Seo Eun-soo’s shoulder with trembling hands and asked.

“Do you have the cockroach? Do you still have it?”

‘I don’t like cockroaches!’

As the youngest son of an orchard house, the bugs were familiar.

But I couldn’t tolerate them as much as cockroaches. It was because, on a day when I was sick with a high fever, it flew from somewhere and landed on my head; I was freaked out by just looking at cockroaches after that.

I will never forget the shock of Mr. B, who crawled over my head with flapping wings and six fast-moving legs.

‘The fever hurts so much that I couldn’t move, but it was crawling toward my mouth…….’

Fortunately, my mother came and beat Mr. B to death, but since then, I have suffered from extreme fear of Mr. B to the extent that I still often remember the nightmares from that time.

When I trembled like a newborn baby deer and complained of extreme fear of cockroaches, Seo Eun-soo rubbed his eyes as if he had seen nothing and pushed me away.

“……You’re more disgusting than a cockroach, so get out of my way.”

“Yes.”

I’m sorry. I’ll shut up and move aside.

‘Seong Chan-young… It seems you’re more hateful than cockroaches.’

He really has a long way to go. My eyes were about to sweat.

As he quickly stepped back, Seo Eun-soo looked at me as if I were a very pitiful person, sighed, and leaned back against the front door.

“Come in for now. I’ll have to hear your words.”

He bent down and lifted the flower basket with the money envelope I had dropped. I opened my mouth cautiously in bewilderment.

“Are, are you sure?”

“Yes, so stop being silly and come in. Anyway, I don’t have a hobby to keep a guest who came to apologize at the door.”

Wow. I’m a step away from the original bad ending, right?

Let’s see if he’s the angelic main Shou who can give the least mercy to a creature that is inferior to a cockroach.

I was so happy that I answered vigorously.

“Yes, yes!”

I felt Seo Eun-soo looking at me strangely, but I didn’t care. I was so excited about the fact that I had done it that I quickly took off my shoes, put them neatly away, and entered the house.

Ah, as the old saying goes, there is a hole that will rise even if the sky collapses. The hope in transmigrated life is beginning to show. I’m proud.

“Sit down there for now. I’ll bring you some water.”

Seo Eun-soo made me sit on the sofa in the living room and poured water into the cup. I glanced around the main Shou’s house, because I had only encountered it in words; it was very fascinating.

There were traces of time everywhere, including old sofas, old-fashioned apartments, and sunburned wallpaper. The traces were referring to Seo Eun-soo’s poverty.

“Why are you looking around like that? It’s not like you’ve seen it once or twice.”

A mug of barley tea was placed on the table with a thud. Seo Eun-soo, who raised one eyebrow and looked pure and innocent when he glanced up.

“I’m sorry if I was rude.”

‘I have to stoop down here. Since I’m here to clean up Sung Chan-young’s dead flag.’

When I bowed my head and apologized, Seo Eun-soo tilted his head as if he had seen everything strange in the world.

“That’s strange……. The Seong Chan-young I know doesn’t use honorifics to me, nor is he gentle?”

That’s because he’s someone else. The doubt is valid, of course.

As expected of Seong Chan-young. Infamous for his reputation. Making this character change extremely suspicious. Is this also a talent, if it’s considered one?

“I heard it’s almost time to die when a person changes. What are you up to? Honestly, I can’t believe your apology.”

Seo Eun-soo sat in front of me and looked at me suspiciously. On the table was a cell phone that was still recording.

1. Dog-drip means ‘dog-like ad-lib’, which refers to disparaging silly jokes or inappropriate words. Korean typically use the word, 드립 (drip) as ad-lib.2. 개차반 is an offensive Korean term/slang for dirtbag, scumbag or dog trash3. With housekeeper ajumma and secretary Choi, Seong Chan-young will be at the upper-hand whereas, with Seo Eun-soo, it’s completely different.4. A little TMI here, both of them are talking in a very formal way in this dialogue. It’s especially hilarious when Seong Chan-young’s inner self is panicking a lot but his outer self is being extremely polite.5. He actually said “엄마야!” which means ‘mother!’ technically, but it’s an expression of surprise so it wouldn’t exactly make sense.6. 바선생 is an internet term that mean Mr./Teacher cockroach. Two years ago, in Korea, a post blew up the internet, with the title; “If you live with 160cm-tall Mr. B for a month and get 10 billion won, will you do it?”7. The post also had very specific agreements and tasks that you have to follow through; such as  Mr. B is clean enough to wash twice a day. But you have to wash after Mr. B washes, and you have to wipe yourself with the towel Mr. B cleansed.