Tired Of Living As An Omega

Seong Chan-young appeared in the dream. Not the vicious and shameless Seong Chan-young of the past, but the weak Seong Chan-young, who was dying with only bones and skin left, walking hard toward Do-jun.

‘Even so, his eyes are the same as before…….’

I was in a bad mood.

On the very first and last day of the two of them quietly finishing a meal together, the black eyes he had seen at that time were still contained in Seong Chan-young’s eyes in the nightmare.

In the dream, Seong Chan-young asked Baek Do-jun with his chapped lips, his pupils nearly closing.

[You feel relieved now that I’m gone, right?]

[You always wanted me to die miserably or disappear.]

[How does it feel? To have your wish fulfilled.]

“……I never wanted you to die like this.”

[Lie.]

The end of the dream was always the same. When Do-jun denied Chan-young’s words that he did not want Chan-young’s death or unhappiness, Chan-young immediately laughed at him and spilled red blood from his mouth and nose.

[It was you who wanted me to die more than anyone else.]

“……No.”

[Be honest. This is your dream. It’s a place where your imagination is embodied.]

Especially because you hated and despised me horribly.

“Stop it.”

‘This is a dream anyway. A dream that is all gone when you wake up.’

When Do-jun tried to escape thinking that way, Chan-young, who vomited blood, approached him and hugged him. Even though he looked like a completely sick person, his strength was like that of a strong bulky man [1] , so he couldn’t shake off his hand.

“Let go of me!”

As soon as I tried to escape from Seong Chan-young, who was laughing out of displeasure, the laughter suddenly stopped and stared at him with a sad crying face.

[I want to live, Do-jun ah.]

“You….”

As soon as Do-jun saw his eyes full of tears, he had no choice but to freeze. It was the appearance of “Changed Chan-young” that Do-jun remembered.

[Can you come and find me?]

Chan-young in the dream looked so pathetic and sobbed against Do-jun. Do-jun tried to hug Chan-young without realizing it because he was as pitiful as a wounded young bird.

However, by that time, the former image of Chan-young, who was evil like a ghost, revived and laughed at him with a bloody face.

[Can I say that you don’t have a heart for me?]

You can’t get away from me forever. Like a dog that’s already used to a leash and doesn’t run outside.

“No!”

The dream was always over after the hideous whispers of Seong Chan-young, like a curse.

‘I can’t help but dream like this.’

At first, Do-jun thought he was dreaming of Seong Chan-young simply because of the discomfort left in his mind by the phone call between Chairman Seong. It’s because of an uneasy feeling, which he couldn’t even know.

However, even as time passed, the nightmare continued to bother Do-jun, and the whereabouts of Seong Chan-young, who tried to find out in his own way, were unknown.

“Did he actually disappear?”

‘Or did you run a guest house somewhere?’

Like in my dream, just imagining that Seong Chan-young would die painfully made my heart throb. I also wished I could die as it is, but I became more nervous at the thought that I might be breathing weakly in a fragile manner.

‘Why am I being swayed by Seong Chan-young like this?’

I didn’t care if he disappeared. It was actually Seong Chan-young’s duty to maintain the break up of our engagement at the end. So I gladly stayed at the table and ate together.

‘Maybe I can do this much.’

In a way, it could be seen as the leisure of the possessor. Do-jun thought he won against Seong Chan-young. Chan-young, who broke the engagement at will, sympathized with him inwardly, saying, “Since he was branded as a troublemaker in the family, there is nothing left to do but to be miserable.”

It was all over. I thought I would be relieved, but I was mistaken.

-Your ex-fiancee, Chan-young, disappeared.

Chairman Seong’s phone call caused a stir in Baek Do-jun’s heart, which had a slight discomfort.

He was anxious several times a day, drawing the shadow of death that would come to Seong Chan-young. The eyes of wanting nothing were strangely vivid in his memory, so he couldn’t pretend not to know.

‘If I hadn’t answered that call, would I have forgotten Seong Chan-young forever?’

Such a question was meaningless. Already, Do-jun was thrown on the waves of confusion. Seo Eun-soo’s contact, who had been waiting several times a day, was pushed out of priority.

Seo Eun-soo was not very interested in Do-jun, so he didn’t care, but Do-jun was different. He found it difficult to endure the disruption of his lifestyle in an instant due to a stone called Seong Chan-young, who he did not think would get in the way.

“What happened to Seong Chan-young?”

“I’m sorry, sir. There is no significant news yet.”

So he tried to find Seong Chan-young, if not as hard as Chairman Seong. Expecting that finding it will solve this frustrating feeling.

“Where are you hiding, Seong Chan-young?”

After Seong Chan-young disappeared, he caused even more troubles for Baek Do-jun. All of his existence and traces that once remained were erased, but Do-jun was going crazy.

‘… was I the one who was sympathized?’

Baek Do-jun was conceited about winning against Seong Chan-young, but in fact, Seong Chan-young might have won. Seong Chan-young was still playing with Baek Do-jun even when he was not in his seat.

‘If you’re sick, you should at least say that you’re sick. Instead you ask me to break up the engagement as if making an appointment with a passing-by beggar and break free?’

The fatigue of not sleeping properly and the anger originally accumulated toward Seong Chan-young gradually broke his reasoning. Now Do-jun was guaranteeing that this annoying inconvenience would not be resolved without seeing Seong Chan-young’s face and saying some words.

“Find him as fast as you can. If it is difficult to track him down, visit Choi Min-hyuk [2] , who was Seong Chan-young’s secretary, and investigate him.”

“Yes, sir.”

Seong Chan-young had a secretary with a heavy mouth and a good job out of his element. Secretary Choi was currently the most difficult culprit for Baek Do-jun to find Seong Chan-young’s whereabouts.

“Please persuade the secretary somehow to find out Seong Chan-young’s current address. Without using violent means, resolve it with talks as much as possible.”

“I understand, young master.”

After giving the instructions, Do-joon frowned in fatigue, then rose from his chair and picked up the car key.

‘Let’s go to Eun-soo.’

Breathing in Seo Eun-soo’s sweet and cozy dominant omega pheromones might make me feel more comfortable. Recently, Baek Do-jun’s pheromone has become extremely sensitive, and it is not perfect, as his feelings were exposed through pheromones.

He wanted to meet for a different reason than before, when he used to say it would be good to just see his face, but Baek Do-jun did not notice it himself.

When he pressed Eun-soo’s contact number directly on his cell phone, he heard a cheerful melody of the phone connection.

Soon, Seo Eun-soo’s voice was heard.

[Hello?]

“Oh, Eun-soo. It’s me. Do-jun.”

[What’s going on? All of a sudden, at this hour.]

It was already late, so it was a dark night. Perhaps because it was not a bright day like when Baek Do-jun usually contacted Seo Eun-soo, Seo Eun-soo sounded surprised.

“Well, I was just wondering if we could meet for a drink.”

The four alpha men approached Seo Eun-soo in their own way. Among them, Baek Do-jun expressed his tenderness in a way that showed favor to Seo Eun-soo under the guise of a friendly friend, but Seo Eun-soo had no idea.

So, while being an omega, he could have answered that he was fine with the invitation of drinking together from an alpha.

[Shall we? It’s not a bad idea to meet and talk after a long time.]

“It’s been a long time since I last saw…….”

At Seo Eun-soo’s words, Do-jun realized how much he had forgotten about his crush recently.

[Huh? What did you say?]

“No. No. You know Eunshin Pocha [3] , right? A bar near your house.”

[Yes, I know]

“I’ll see you there. It’s on me today.”

[Then I’d be thankful]. Well, I’ll see you later.]

“……yes.”

When the call ended, Baek Do-jun went down to the parking lot and started the car. And to meet Seo Eun-soo quickly, he headed to the appointment place, speeding up.

‘When I see Eun-soo, I won’t think of Seong Chan-young.’

I hoped so, but just as few things go as planned in life, Baek Do-jun’s plan went up in smoke.

1. 장사 means a person of great physical strength but ironically enough, it can also mean funeral or cremation.2. We got a name!!! Choi Min-hyuk, our secretary-nim. <3  3. Pocha 포차 means food carts which is typical Korean culture. They usually deals in street food with soju and you can sit down to eat, but in this context, the place might be fancier and more formal.