The Exorcist

Chapter 9 Doubt

It was already evening when we arrived at the dry well.

Xiao Xia looked down, and a deep and peaceful breath hit her face. There was no cold feeling in it, nor was there the damp musty smell, the dusty feeling of dead leaves or dust, just like the feeling Abai gave people - ―Gentle, quiet, kind and melancholy.

Observing the dark place from a bright place, Xiaoxia couldn't see anything for a moment, but she didn't make a sound. She didn't know if Abai had 'get up', because according to the spiritual body's work and rest time, it was still early morning.

"Xiao Xia!" But when she was about to leave the well and wanted to sit outside and wait for it to get completely dark, Abai's voice came from the bottom of the well, "Why are you here?"

"Can't I come to see you? Since you agreed to come see me, but you didn't go." That voice made Xiaoxia extremely happy. She never knew that her best friend was not a real person, but a soul. In movies and TV dramas, there are many romances between humans and ghosts, but there are very few friendships between humans and ghosts.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoxia." Abai was as gentle as ever, "Then - can you come down first? I can't go up."

Xiaoxia had already prepared the rope and tied it firmly to the tree. Now when she heard Abai's invitation, she climbed down along the rope. The walls of the well were dry and rough. Although she had not done well in sports since childhood, she still went down into the well smoothly.

Looking at Abai's haggard and calm face, Xiaoxia almost cried for a moment. She stepped forward to hug Abai, but she hugged Kong instead.

"I'm sorry, I don't have a body."

"Idiot, I forgot your situation, so why are you apologizing?" Xiaoxia pretended to be relaxed and shrugged, looking around this small place. I saw that the bottom of the well was spotlessly clean and empty, even her dead bones were buried. The entire bottom of the well was like a small meditation room, without any intrusion from the worldly world.

"Why don't you live in the Octagon Building? No one lives there anyway." Abai's loneliness made Xiaoxia sad, and she felt how lucky she was compared to her. At least Ruan Zhan has always helped her and never harmed her, and she has never sacrificed her life for him.

Abai smiled beautifully and said softly, "Although no one lives there, people often go there. I have passed away from this world, so I don't want to trouble or harass others. I am buried here, and this is my home." "

"But the environment there is better than here. It doesn't have to be exposed to wind or rain."

"Xiaoxia, you know, I have very little mana left, and I can't deal with the dangers in the mountains and forests. He sealed me here before, and the main reason was to protect me. Although the barrier trapped me It killed me, but nothing else could get in, so as soon as I came back here, I restarted the barrier from below. Moreover, I have been practicing again these days. Although the divine power has not been restored, it has still grown. A little mana. Look, I can put up a relatively simple barrier to block the wind and rain from the well, as if I added a roof. Isn’t it great?"

Xiaoxia was surprised and quickly looked up. She knew there was a formation on the wall of the well, and later asked Ruan Zhan to move a point in it and rescued A Bai. Unexpectedly, A Bai pushed back the moved place from below. No wonder, she just said she couldn't get up.

"But this is very unfree!"

"Wherever he is, there is my freedom." Abai said, with an extremely determined look on his beautiful face.

Looking at this infatuated woman, Xiaoxia didn't know what to say. How can a woman love a man so lovingly without any regrets? But only a pure and kind person like A Bai can let the devil-like Sima Nan retain the last bit of conscience and love!

Looking around, I found no remains of Sima Nan. Abai seemed to understand what Xiaoxia meant and pointed to his head. Only then did Xiaoxia see something like a white ribbon on her cloud-like black hair, tightly wrapped around a strand of Abai's hair. The ribbon seemed to be alive. It moved automatically in Abai's hair, just like a ray of light passing through the darkness, making Abai's whole face brighter.

"Sima Nan?"

"It's not him anymore, it's just a part of him." Abai was a little sad, but then he smiled happily and touched the white ribbon with his fingers. As if there was a feeling, the white ribbon wrapped around her finger naturally and nostalgically, "This is enough for me. Even if only one of his hairs stays with me, I won't be lonely anymore."

Xiaoxia once again had nothing to say, but as a woman, she understood Abai's heart.

Abai would rather stay at the bottom of this dark well for hundreds of thousands of years, lonely, boring, and even without hope, than reincarnate, because then he would forget this unforgettable love. How could she not be like this? How could she give up that memory? !

It is difficult for the body and soul to live forever and die forever. People will die and the soul will be destroyed, but only memory will not be destroyed. That moment happened, loved and sacrificed, no matter what The vicissitudes of life cannot be changed! If she can't find her love, all she wants is the beautiful memories of that moment. And how could Ruan Zhan be so cruel and take it away without her knowledge? ! Whether it was pain, regret, resentment, or antagonism, after all, it was all she had, how could she destroy it so ruthlessly? !

She hates him and can't face him, just because of this!

"When are you leaving?" Abai asked suddenly.

Xiaoxia came back to her senses and tried hard to hide her thoughts, "I just came here and you kicked me out? We are still friends. You didn't even bother to entertain me for a few days. Do you just want the world between the two of you?"

Abai blushed, "It's not that I can't tolerate you, Xiaoxia, I can go without food or drink, but you will still be alive! Sleeping in a well is not good for your health. Besides, you are a human being after all, and you often interact with It’s not okay for souls to be together.”

"But I want to stay with you for a while." Xiaoxia said without leaving a trace, "Well, you can only restore the barrier that sealed this place, but I have a physical body, so I can open it again. You and I ——And Sima Nan, go out of the well first and live in the Octagonal Tower for a while, and then when I leave, you can just come back and live here. As for the people in the village, I will let you know." Xiaoxia patted her backpack and said, "I brought a little money, not much, just tens of thousands of yuan, and I plan to donate it to the village. It's not enough to build roads, but I can see if the villagers can use it as capital and find some." Ways to get rich.”

"I'm afraid there's danger in the mountains and I won't be able to protect you." Abai hesitated. She is happy to meet her friends. Although Yin and Yang are separated from each other, it is a rare blessing for her to have people who are not afraid of her and do not regard her as a superior and elegant person. They can talk about the secret words in the boudoir.

"I'm not afraid." Xiaoxia raised her chin proudly, "I'm not the original Yue Xiaoxia. Now I have a senior brother who taught me some magic. With this kind of magic, if you and I join forces, we will be invincible. !" She boasted as she took out the half-remaining spell from her backpack and told Abai about the Five Elements Forbidden Law.

Abai smiled softly and took a step back, "Don't get so close to me. Although this spell has not been cast yet, it is full of spiritual power. I will be afraid!"

Xiaoxia didn't expect this. She was startled when she heard this and hurriedly backed away. However, she forgot that the bottom of the well was narrow and hit the wall of the well. She gasped in pain.

"Be careful!" Abai felt a little apologetic about Xiaoxia's reaction, and quickly stepped forward to help her. Unexpectedly, as soon as she got close, Xiaoxia's amulet emitted light, preventing her from stepping forward.

"This amulet is so powerful!" Abai said in admiration and took a closer look. "When I stayed with you before, it seemed to be used to me and would not react. But now, even if there is no malice, It can’t be approached, A-Zhan must have been continuously adding spiritual power to it. He is like this——"

Abai originally wanted to say that Ruan Zhan was doing such a disservice to himself, but when he saw Xiaoxia's unnatural expression, his heart suddenly moved, and he somewhat understood Xiaoxia's purpose. Seeing Xiao Xia's brows and eyes covered with a hint of sadness, she didn't say anything at the moment and obeyed and lived in the bamboo house with Xiao Xia.

For a week, they lived like this in a peaceful, peaceful and comfortable life in the mountains. In order to cooperate with Abai, Xiaoxia also changed to a daily routine of lying in bed during the day and going out at night. The two of them talked endlessly in their free time, but Xiaoxia never mentioned Ruan Zhan, and even Wan Li and Bao Datong didn't think about it, for fear of opening up the wounds in their hearts. Abai saw all this until the night of the seventh day , she couldn't help asking anymore.

Xiaoxia cried, shedding tears at first, and finally crying loudly. She told Abai everything intermittently, as if the churning river water in her heart had been vented out at this moment.

"He really went too far this time." Abai was silent for a while, then reached out and stroked Xiaoxia's head. For the first time, she felt that there was no physical pain. If she had a body, she could hold her and comfort her, but at this moment she couldn't. Nothing can be done, "But, he is a man. Men have men's thoughts. If he knew that the memory was extremely important to you, he would not do that."

"He hates me!"

"Come on, Xiaoxia, don't get angry with yourself. Even if you don't know whether he loves you, at least you know that he definitely doesn't hate you."

Xiaoxia sobbed and felt much more comfortable. This matter has been weighing on her mind and she has not mentioned it to anyone. Now that she told Abai, it seemed that all the burdens had been lifted and she could look at herself from an objective perspective.

Thinking about Ruan Zhan's usual kindness to her, she suddenly felt that she was a bit bullying. However, she still couldn't stand the fact that he wanted to erase her memory, because it meant that he regretted having a relationship with her and that he wanted to give up.

However, since he wanted to give up, why did the spiritual call that disappeared three days ago start again? Guilty? Or sympathy? The call came so suddenly that she almost answered him. The fact that she almost made a 'mistake' made her realize how much she missed him and how much she loved him, not any less because she hated him for what he had done. This also allowed her to truly understand Abai. When a woman falls in love with someone from the bottom of her heart, no matter whether it is worth it or not, whether he hurts herself or not, she will continue to love him and it will not change at all.

Does he love her or just like her? His usual behavior left her confused and unsure. Sometimes the look in his eyes made her feel that he loved her, but sometimes he was so distant. He was like a mirage to her, visible but invisible.

"Perhaps, he has his own reasons." Abai sighed faintly, thinking of Sima Nan, "If you fall in love with a complicated man, you have to think more about it, both for yourself and for him."

Difficulties?

Maybe Xiaoxia had never thought about this. She was like a ball of fire. She kept burning when she fell in love, trying to melt him and warm him. She never considered the reason why he refused to melt.

"What difficulties can there be? In my opinion, the things that interfere with love are just the same - parents' resistance, pressure from reality, third party interference - he has no parents for a long time -" At this point, Xiaoxia Suddenly he remembered Ruan's father's situation, but then he shook his head. Knowing that Ruan Zhan and his father had such a bad relationship, he would never reject him because of his father's objection. Moreover, he forcibly erased his memory when he was in Hongqing Town. Ruan's father hadn't appeared yet.

"We don't have any real pressure at all. He has a bar, I have a job, and I don't ask for good food and clothing. There is no financial problem at all. There doesn't seem to be a third party - could it be that he already has a wife?" Xiao Xia asked I was shocked by my guess.

"How is that possible?" Abai smiled, "With a man like him as a husband, all women will keep a close eye on him, so how can other women have a chance to interfere? Besides, you have been together for so long and have seen his wife. Show up?"

"Perhaps he is in a similar situation to Mr. Rochester." Xiaoxia's super imagination came into play, remembering the plot of "Jane Eyre" and imagining that Ruan Zhan might have a crazy wife locked up in the attic or hiding in the countryside!

The more she thought about it, the more believable it became, and she couldn't help but feel sad. It turns out that he is already married!

"Xiaoxia, don't think so wildly. Believe me, A-Zhan definitely doesn't have a wife." Abai interrupted Xiaoxia's imagination. Although she didn't know who Mr. Rochester was, she also knew that Xiaoxia's thoughts had taken a wrong turn thousands of miles away. Went up.

"Then what's the reason? Unless he doesn't love me, or he can't love me!" Xiaoxia paused, shocked by the second thought.

She couldn't be sure whether Ruan Zhan loved her, but she could be sure that he cared about her. If not, he would have the same attitude towards her as he did towards other women who chased and entangled him, and there was no way he would be frightened by himself losing his temper. At a loss. What kind of man was he? He didn't change his attitude no matter how much danger he encountered, but that day - maybe he really loved her, but there was some reason that hindered him.

Can she think that way?

Could it be that he was seriously ill and was about to die? However, he has always been so healthy and will recover quickly even if he is injured. How could he get sick? Even if he is sick, he knew about it before Hongqing Town. What kind of disease can last for so long without being noticeable at all?

veto! This answer is NO!

But the word 'difficulties' opened up a line of thought in Xiaoxia's mind and started to make her consider other possibilities, the one that made Ruan Zhan evasive.

"Go back and take a look! I think you miss him too much." Abai said softly, "But don't show your doubts, otherwise, a man like him who keeps everything in mind may hide it again. Woke up!"