Reluctantly Willing

The moment the door opened, the whole villa was filled with Guo Guo’s cries. He had seen the advertisement countless times in the afternoon, but he did not receive his ice cream.

“Ice cream… Ice cream…” Guo Guo repeated.

“Where is An Xiaoyan?”

The Nanny came out of the kitchen and shook her head. She saw Gu Jun holding a bouquet of flowers, seemingly in a good mood.

“Where is he?”

“I don’t know.”

Gu Jun’s gentle face changed instantly. He went to the room on the second floor and opened the door without finding anyone inside.

Disappointment, resentment, discontent.

He made up his mind to buy a bouquet of flowers, but An Xiaoyan was gone.

Why should he be so sentimental? He said he would not let An Xiaoyan go and An Xiaoyan gave his promise. Why did he go?

Isn’t life good here in the villa? How dare you leave the villa without my permission?

Gu Jun threw the flowers on the ground and stepped on them vigorously. The orange flowers of Kapok fell from the branches and its leaves were instantly ground into mud-like form.

Just when he was about to call Chen Chen to get An Xiaoyan back, he was stunned by the person standing at the door.

Frozen hair, snowflakes covered body, red cheeks, and an ice cream…

“Where have you been?”

An Xiaoyan first put the ice cream into Guo Guo’s hand and told the nanny to take the child away, then faced Gu Jun alone.

“To buy ice cream.”

He was prepared for a punishment. After all, he went out on his own, defying Gu Jun’s order.

An Xiaoyan was trying to control his frozen hands, take off his heavy coat, sweep off the snow on his clothes, and take off his sweater. When his hands were on his sweater, Gu Jun went forward to press against him.

“Sorry, I didn’t obey and stay here.”

Gu Jun looked at An Xiaoyan’s frozen red lips, and his heart ached. “It’s alright. Next time, if you wish to go out, just let me know. I’ll get someone to go with you.”

“I…” What he wanted to say was that he did not deserve it and that he would never go out again.

“Don’t apologize. You did right.”

This sentence made An Xiaoyan feel at a loss. He would rather Gu Jun sleep with him or beat him up, which might make him feel better. Instead, what Gu Jun did made him feel weak.

“An Xiaoyan, raise your head and look at me.”

Since this was an order, An Xiaoyan obediently raised his head. Just when their eyes met, a big figure appeared right in front of An Xiaoyan’s face.

There was a warm breath on his lips, and his eyes could not help staring. An Xiaoyan wanted to push aside the great oppression, but Gu Jun held him firmly and refused to let him go.

No usual violence and no aggression, their lips simply stuck together with no further action.

Gu Jun held the person in his arms tightly. He wanted to warm this cold body up with his own heat.

When An Xiaoyan was about to suffocate, Gu Jun let go of him. At that moment, his brain was blank.

Why kiss me?

Kissing was something that lovers do. Why did they not just stick to the usual biting? This kiss shocked him and made his heart beat faster. The winter cold disappeared with the kiss.

It was as if Gu Jun’s little secret was exposed, he let go of An Xiaoyan and ran out of the room. He could not resist the temptation. It was such a wonderful feeling.

Hearing the slam at the door, An Xiaoyan knew Gu Jun was still angry. The kiss must be a punishment for me.

Gu Jun went to the bridge across the river again. It was snowing heavily outside. Nobody would be out at this temperature, but An Xiaoyan went out to buy an ice cream for Guo Guo in this extreme cold.

The water below the bridge began to freeze. Winter was really approaching.

After smoking a cigarette, Gu Jun was prepared to go back to the villa. A phone call came and all his joy was instantly extinguished.

An Xiaoyan, how dare you to deceive me!

Tightly wrapped in the quilt, An Xiaoyan still felt cold. He felt as if he had fallen into an ice hole, feeling very cold, but the heat inside his heart made it unbearable for him.

Before he fell asleep, the quilt was lifted. Gu Jun saw An Xiaoyan curled up and went forward to pull down his pants, with no regards whether he was awake or not.

Pain…

It was so painful even in the dream, really painful, like a knife stabbed into the heart.

The pain thoroughly awakened him, and An Xiaoyan was not at all surprised when he saw the person who was pressing against him.

Sure enough, it was the real Gu Jun. That kiss was only a small punishment. The main punishment just happened. He did not resist, biting his lips hard, waiting for the end of it.

“Does it hurt?” Gu Jun’s deep voice came.

With a hard push, An Xiaoyan whimpered.

My pain can only be alleviated when you feel pain. I feel tormented when I torment you. Let’s be in pain together.

“You shouldn’t lie to me. Why did you go out to meet others in private?”

Gu Jun’s mind was full of the content which Chen Chen had reported.

Mr. An went out to a warehouse in a village at the city. He met the man who was present in the hospital the last time.

The two of them gave each other a hug before leaving.

Mr. An seemed reluctant to go.

What rights do you have to be kind to others? You still owe me a debt that you haven’t finished repaying. Why don’t you please me instead?

Thinking of this, Gu Jun exerted more strength and pressed hard on An Xiaoyan’s right arm. The amount of strength seemed enough to break the whole arm.

Immense pain could be felt from from An Xiaoyan’s arm. He wanted to move away a little, but how could his strength compare to Gu Jun’s? His arm did not move at all. At last, he gave in and lay like a dead fish.

Disable the arm if you want. Anyway, it’s useless to keep it.

After it was over, Gu Jun did not leave like usual, but lay beside An Xiaoyan, touching An Xiaoyan’s body as if it were a treasure. An Xiaoyan, if you use a little gentleness that you have for others on me, I would not hate you so much.

An Xiaoyan’s arm felt as if it were disabled. He tried to life his right arm, but no matter how hard he tried, he could not. It felt as if his arm were a thousand kilograms in weight.

There was a bottle with Kapok in it, on the table. No flowers were left, leaving only a few broken leaves on the stalk. No one knew who placed it there.

Guo Guo recalled the fragrance of the ice cream he ate yesterday, knocked on the door and shouted, “Uncle, ice cream!”.

An Xiaoyan stared at the door. After a long time, the voice faded and became softer.

He could not help but open the door and let Guo Guo in.

“Ice cream… Ice cream…”

An Xiaoyan squatted down with the pain behind him and consoled Guo Guo, “There is no more. Guo Guo, be good. You can’t eat too much ice cream, you’ll fall sick.”

Guo Guo shook his head and took An Xiaoyan’s hand. Guo Guo looked like he was about to cry.

Coincidentally, Guo Guo was pulling An Xiaoyan’s right arm. His right arm was dislocated, swinging around like a swing.

Guo Guo found it interesting and continued to swing An Xiaoyan’s arm around. Guo Guo pulled it to and fro a few times, and An Xiaoyan broke out in cold sweat.

“Guo Guo, how about watching cartoons? Uncle is ill. I can’t play with you today.”

An Xiaoyan pulled himself up and went downstairs. He turned on the TV and switched to the cartoon channel. After Guo Guo settled down, An Xiaoyan breathed a sigh of relief.

Ever since Guo Guo stuck to An Xiaoyan every day, the babysitter would only come by during meal times. After all, she could clearly feel that Guo Guo had really changed a lot, he became happier and talked a lot more. Seeing the young master’s healthy growth, she felt relieved.

But Mr. An seemed to getting more haggard.