Reluctantly Willing

With his last hope dashed, he was like a living dead man without direction and without knowing where to go.

The clock on the wall showed that it was already 8 p.m. He would lose the chance if he did not act immediately. An Xiaoyan cruelly bit his finger, and dew-like blood oozed out.

He drew a paper towel from the box and wrote on it using his blood. After writing a word, his finger stopped bleeding. An Xiaoyan bit his finger hard again. It was so painful that he took a deep breath, and red blood started oozing out again. After he finished writing a sentence, he picked up the paper towel and blew it dry, then placed it on the table. Next, he held on to the wall and walked out of the house.

Walking into the bathroom, he sat in the bathtub. An Xiaoyan aimed at his left chest, closed his eyes, and ruthlessly stabbed himself.

The knife penetrated deeply, and a liquid flowed out of An Xiaoyan’s mouth. His body slowly slid downwards.

Gu Jun, although I have only one life and it’s worthless, this is the only thing I can do for you.

If you still don’t forgive me, I’ll never have a chance to repay you in this life.

Next life, if I can meet you again, I will repay it.

I only hope you can take good care of Guo Guo.

Before he lost his consciousness, he felt as if he was in heaven, surrounded by light.

The night in the villa was as quiet as usual, and the quietness was broken by the voice of a child.

After Guo Guo was brought home, he was all alone and felt bored. As children tend to be hyperactive at night, when Guo Guo was being put in bed, he could not fall asleep. When he heard some noise outside, he thought that his father was back.

His short legs climbed up the stairs and he went upstairs. He smelled a strange smell, which he had never smelled before. He followed the scent and found An Xiaoyan lying quietly in the bathtub.

“Daddy, Daddy…” Guo Guo reached out and patted An Xiaoyan’s body, but he did not move. He would not move when he is asleep. Is he asleep?

The red liquid in the bathtub was so beautiful. Guo Guo could not help dipping a little into his mouth. He cried immediately after the first taste.

The nanny was about to lie down when she heard the child crying and rushed up to the second floor. When she saw the young master’s face full of blood and the person lying in the bathtub, she almost fainted. Isn’t this the man I saw the last time? How did Mr. Gu’s friend end up like this?

The nanny’s hands shivered as she dialed 120. She stood in the living room on the first floor with Guo Guo in her arms, waiting anxiously for the ambulance to come. Why is Mr. An here? You are such a good man, please don’t die.

Soon the siren from 120 came from a distance. Medical staff carried An Xiaoyan from the bathtub to the stretcher and rushed to the hospital.

The nanny held Guo Guo tightly and covered the child’s eyes so that he could not see the bloody scene.

“Are any of his family members coming along?” asked a little nurse.

The nanny looked at the child in her arms and thought about An Xiaoyan, then made her own decision to get into the ambulance with Guo Guo.

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Gu Jun stood in the office and smashed everything that could be smashed. An Xiaoyan, are you a fool? I told you to die, and you really go and die. Don’t you have any backbone?

If you die, who will pay the debt, who will atone!

With the car key in hand, Gu Jun drove out of the garage to the hospital, but when he was about to turn, he went in the opposite direction.

Opening the door of the room, a bloody smell surged out, as if announcing the last death.

He had no courage to enter the bathroom.

Gu Jun hated An Xiaoyan very much, but still could not accept the news that An Xiaoyan was dying.

Maybe he was deceiving me. He probably just wanted to be free and me to forgive to him. If this is just an excuse, An Xiaoyan may have gone too far.

What suicide? It’s just a reason he used.

When he finally opened the bathroom door and saw a layer of blood in the bathtub, Gu Jun was stunned. An Xiaoyan is really dying.

Gu Jun had never felt so desperate. These bloodstains are definitely not his. Maybe they are chicken blood or cat and dog blood.

He went near the bathtub, dipped his finger in a spot of blood that was about to coagulate, put it near his nose and sniffed it gently.

It was a feeling of familiarity, the smell of An Xiaoyan.

Liquid flowed out from the corners of his eyes and across his cheeks, then finally onto his chest.

It was tears. Why did he shed tears? He could free himself once An Xiaoyan was dead. He would not have any more hatred. But why did he tear up?

An Xiaoyan was dying, he was leaving, and no one would accompany him to hate.

After staying in the bathtub for almost half a day, Gu Jun wiped the corners of his eyes and returned to the bedroom again. An oxidized yellow apple was sitting quietly on the table with a lunch box labeled with the “Feast of the World” logo next to it. It looked like no one had touched the table. There was a piece of paper on the table. The line of dark red handwriting was very striking.

“Mr. Gu, I’m dead. Now I can at least pay off half of it. ”

After reading the letter written in blood, Gu Jun drove madly to the hospital.

There was no day and night at the hospital. At any time, a patient’s life can be hanging by a thread. When Gu Jun arrived, he saw the nanny sitting on the bench. Guo Guo was running around in the corridor, tugging the nurse’s trousers from time to time.

“Chen Chen, bring a sum of cash and a red envelope with you, then come straight to the First Hospital. I am waiting outside the emergency room.”

Chen Chen had no idea what had happened and had to follow suit. He took the money and drove to the designated location. As soon as he got off the elevator and turned into the corridor, he saw Gu Jun holding his head with both hands, facing the ground.

“Mr. Gu, what’s the purpose of the cash?”

“Go to the doctors and nurses in the emergency department and tell them to save the person inside at all costs.”

Gu Jun still maintained his posture after Chen Chen returned from his task.

“Mr. Gu, is the man inside Mr. An?”

Gu Jun nodded numbly. Chen Chen’s heart sank and sat next to him.

“What happened?”

“I don’t know. It was the nanny who called and said that there was blood in the bathtub and they are in the hospital.”

“He committed suicide?”

Gu Jun nodded with difficulty. He was unwilling to admit this fact, but this was the reality. No matter how much he tormented An Xiaoyan before, An Xiaoyan had never given up hope to live. An Xiaoyan said that he would not die and Gu Jun would not allow him to. Before he knew it, An Xiaoyan broke his promise.

“As far as I know, Mr. An is someone who values his life. He will not give up his life easily.”

“But he still gave up. He even said that he could pay off half of his debts when he is dead. Don’t you think it’s ridiculous for him to pay off a debt just by stabbing himself with a fruit knife?”

“Fruit knife? Is it an orange colored knife with a long handle?”

“How do you know?”

“When I was the villa, Mr. An told me that he wanted to eat an apple and asked me to peel one for him.”

Gu Jun’s world suddenly collapsed. An Xiaoyan had already planned it. He wanted to die. When did he have such an idea? Is it after returning from the An family’s home?

Why did you die without my permission?