I’m Not Going to Be Bullied By a Girl

The rain is not big, but there is a feeling that it will not end until the end of the world.

As if God was also infected by the squad leader's tears, I wanted to mourn for the death of the little black.

They all said that "there are rains in the Qingming period." When there is life, it is no more appropriate to have a rain as a farewell.

I vaguely remembered that when my own puppy died of illness many years ago, the sky was very clear, the blue was so hateful, until the night, after I secretly buried it in the community garden, God lost a few Tears.

After that, Dad had a long talk with me. He couldn't escape the charm of the past, but he had many unique insights into life and death. It can be said that he reached the depth of the philosopher.

Now, when Dad used to comfort me, I can borrow flowers to dedicate Buddha and tell the squad leader again.

"It is not a matter of burial or cremation." After I attracted the squad leader's gaze, I pointed to my chest. "Binham Lampman said: The heart of the master is the best place to bury the dog. ""

When Dad used this sentence to comfort me, I agreed with it at the same time.

Of course, who is Bingham Lampman, I haven't found it yet. If he doesn't do anything, he has done nothing but the current Weibo V, which is famous only for his speech.

The squad leader who walked with me on the same street in the rain-soaked street, looked up at me with a slight smile, and seemed to be surprised by the philosophical words I could say.

Because the pet hospital received an emergency, a German black-backed chicken bone pierced the stomach bag, and must be operated immediately. The squad leader left my body to Xiao Ding under my persuasion, and together The umbrella I brought from home went outside.

My intention was to comfort the squad leader and then send her home, but the squad leader walked aimlessly and took me to the unfamiliar path. She was very upset and obviously didn't want to go home immediately.

There are not a few pedestrians on the wet streets, the air is relatively fresh, the slippery road reflects the light of the street lights, and the lonely night is rendered more intense.

The squad leader once again issued a low sob, if I didn’t see it with my own eyes, I really wouldn’t believe that the squad leader who was so strong and so powerful on weekdays would suddenly become the same as the crying pack.

The night wind blows the squad leader's school uniform skirt. I tilted the umbrella to the squad leader in order to prevent her from being drenched by the rain. I don't care about it here. Anyway, when I ran, I had already drenched myself.

What, you said that I don't pay attention to avoiding the rain may catch a cold, don't tease, Sparta's body is not so fragile.

"But..." After I comforted a few words, the squad leader made his debut for the first time. "Little Black has obviously passed through so many times, this time it will not be quite..."

Hey, squad leader, you have made the Buddha’s "excellent heart", "As long as you keep breathing, you can live a long life." The reason why humans die will be the same as Xiaohei, because sometimes it can’t be persisted. what.

I recalled the strategy that Dad used to persuade me. I did not answer the questions of the monitor. Instead, I asked:

"Squad leader, do you believe in the world after death?"

The squad leader shook his head. "My parents are atheists, and me too."

I nodded. "That's right. If there is no post-mortem world, then the dead black, the current state of existence is 'nothingness', this is an extremely beautiful realm, even better than the sweetest sleep. If you don't believe it, try to recall what it was like before you were born."

This anti-traditional statement made the squad leader's eyes wide open with surprise. "You mean...because everything is gone after death, so it is more happy than the living one."

Well, Dad’s meaning is almost like this. He also quoted a passage from the Tao Te Ching, that is, “I have a big patient, I have a body, and I have no body. What is the problem?”

Translated from the classical Chinese text: "I have a body, there will be life and death, there will be a humiliation, if I have no body, I still have any worries."

Of course, I can't talk directly to the squad leader about the classical Chinese text of the book bag, so the squad leader should think that I am wearing a big tail wolf.

Not waiting for the squad leader to ask more questions, I continue to say:

"In turn, if you think there is a post-mortem world, then no matter what kind of religious point of view, a riddled dog is not guilty. After death, it is bound to go to heaven and go to the world of bliss. Maybe you will look down at you from the clouds. If so, why bother to let it see you so sad?"

It may be that the last two sentences are more lyrical. The squad leader took my nose and blocked his eyes while accepting my point of view.

"Ye Lin, you... I have thought about so many questions about life and death. I used to imagine you too simple..."

In fact, it is not me who thinks about life and death. It’s my father. I was only 14 years old and why I thought about hanging up the world every day. But the squad leader mistakenly thought that my thoughts were deep, and that was excellent.

The squad leader breathed the cold air after the rain and sighed faintly: "I don't see it as you do. I go to see the black every week. I have developed a habit. Now I want to suddenly change my habits..."

I don’t think so, I will say that until now, whenever there are bones left on the table, I have to think about it: Do you want to take it home to the puppy, and later realize that there is no puppy at home? Then, there is only one kind of emotion that can't be said, and it is only in the throat, and there is only a smile in the corner of the mouth.

If someone else has heard of the squad leader's situation, he may suggest that the squad leader should raise a healthy dog ​​to forget the pain. I am not qualified to make such a suggestion.

The health of a healthy dog ​​is only ten years old. That is to say, after more than ten years, the squad leader must once again taste the pain of losing the dog, and the longer the time, the greater the pain, because every day is together, already Become a habit.

So my advice to the squad leader is to let her stop volunteering at the pet hospital in the future. I can find another hobby or simply save time for rest.

The squad leader was undecided, but asked me: "You should like dogs."

"Alright." I try to make myself look casual. "As long as it's not a dog that is screaming and biting, I will feed them with food on hand."

"Then, have you ever had a dog in your family?"

I really want to avoid the answer to the squad leader. But the person who needs comfort now is the squad leader. When I advised her to come out of the pet hospital, I also said that I had "experience in this area", so I sighed. I have raised a dog in my own house, but the puppies have died and told the squad leader.

I rarely mention this matter to people. Maybe I don’t think they will understand my mood at that time. But for the squad leader at this time, I seem to have finally found the object that can be confided, and sent me heartfelt mourning. I told the squad leader the details of the burial of the puppy in the garden of the community.

I accidentally said a little more, I twisted my head and blush a little.

"It turned out to be like this..." The squad leader nodded. "A lot of things can be said in this way."

The rain didn't go down, but the squad leader seemed to be close to me. Compared to the physical proximity, I felt that because I knew that I had similar experiences, the distance of the mind was closer.

Around 8:30, after a walk in the rain, I sent the squad leader back home safely.

When opening the security door, the squad leader’s younger brother, Shu Zhe, was watching the TV while eating KFC takeaway. He did not notice the sad expression on the squad leader’s face. He just glanced at the light and asked:

"Sister, where did you go after school today? I don't pick up the phone. I am hungry enough to come back and have no food. I have to wait until now to order a takeaway meal."

"Sister is a bit of a thing today, so I am late." The squad leader said to his brother with apologetics.

Shu Zhe's tone made me angry. I walked into the door and first greeted Shu Zhe and shocked him before he said to him:

"The puppy that your sister has been taking care of at the pet hospital is dead. Your sister is sad. You are a big living person. It is a big deal to solve your own dinner. I still complain to your sister."

Shu Zhe discovered that his sister’s face was full of mourning, but he did not understand the behavior of his sister.

"Ye Linge, and my sister, are you as if an animal is dead, and it is not that I am dead. Why are you so serious, if the animal is dead and you buy one, you won't have it."

I was so angry straight line and sleeves, pointing Shuzhe squad leader asked:. "I beat him up."

If it wasn't because my soles were dirty and I didn't change my slippers, I wouldn't ask for a few chests.

"Don't, Xiaozhe, he didn't mean it." The squad leader blocked me. "Everyone has different ideas. Xiaozhe just doesn't like animals very much."

Shuzhe, I haven't changed my slippers yet, and I sneak into the bedroom, and KFC, who has not finished eating, has not forgotten to get into the house.

He escaped fast.

I suddenly realized that since the squad leader is a pet hospital that goes directly after school, she may not have dinner yet.

"Squad leader, you didn't eat, would you like me to go downstairs to help you buy something?"

"No, no, you have helped me a lot today, there are noodles at home, I can cook it myself..."

Although the squad leader said so, I saw her eyes, and there were clear lingering grief in it. Who knows if I will leave, the squad leader will go straight to sleep without eating dinner.

So I volunteered: "I will cook if I don't want to use noodles. If you don't give up, let me cook an egg noodle for you. You are the main force of tomorrow's volleyball match. You don't eat well, rest well, ducks that arrive." It’s going to fly.”

Before I arrived at the pet hospital, the squad leader had been crying for a long time. The physical strength consumed by crying was much larger than expected, so the squad leader did look very tired. Although she felt a little inappropriate, she thought about it. Grateful and curious to agree with my suggestion.

Ah, I finally realized the "I will give you the food to eat" many times earlier, but today the occasion is not right, I have to concentrate on cooking, don't talk about jokes.