Grand Duke of the Heibern House

＜Episode 70＞

Ruin knew how to live a more comfortable life because of the vacation.

However, because of only one cadet, Ruin was more nervous than when he was crowded with cadets.

Lyria Dreamit Abrel.

There was no particular eye contact or talking.

However, when running on the playground, when reading magic books in the Wisdom Library, or when immersed in images in the rose garden.

He could always feel that he was hovering around him.

He wasn’t usually conscious of anyone’s gaze, and he was already used to this situation because of Adrena, but Ruin couldn’t help but be on edge.

Because I knew that her condition was not normal because of yesterday’s events.

slap-

Ruin suddenly looked at him with his head bent, and Lilia hurriedly buried her face in the magic book.

Bubbly.

The sound of his footsteps echoed through the quiet library.

Just when Lilia was about to tidy up and leave.

“I will tell you in advance, but I have no intention of interfering.”

Louin’s insensitive voice.

Lyria stopped and looked back.

“Do you need someone?”

“what… … .”

Louin laughed.

“conversation.”

It’s cold, but it pierces your heart.

There is no emotion, but it makes you want to lean on it.

Ruin’s voice was like that.

* * *

It was the first time for Lillia to drink tea with a man, just the two of them.

Is it because of that awkwardness?

She didn’t say a word until the milk tea, which was steaming, cooled down.

It might be strange to call someone over and keep your mouth shut, but Ruin was just enjoying the tea in silence.

After breaking the long silence, Lilia cautiously moved her lips.

“if… … Was it you yesterday?”

also.

That’s why it’s been around the whole time.

Luin laughed bitterly.

No matter how emotional he was, a wizard is still a wizard.

There was no way that the presence of people in front of the door could not be detected by the magician’s sensitive senses.

“There is no bad taste in being curious about the privacy of others. It was just passing through. Do not care about it.”

Lilia was also well aware of Ruin’s tendencies.

Thorough self-management.

Insensitivity to not caring about anything other than one’s own work.

He was such a human being, like a model of a cold-hearted wizard.

So I was even more curious.

“Then why aren’t you asking anything?”

It’s vacation, so why don’t you go back to your family like the other cadets?

Why were you crying again?

Ruin never revealed the questions that any cadet in his class would have wondered about.

Rather, Ruin’s indifference stimulated Lilia even more.

Ruin’s sunken eyes looked directly at Lilia.

“You would have known.”

Lilia was the only one among the cadets who did not show direct curiosity towards her.

She didn’t bother to wonder about running on the playground without rest or about her fasting diet.

Even when she revealed the magic system of her previous life, even when she revealed her abnormal telekinesis, she was the only one who remained silent.

“… … What do you think I know?”

“That any question has no meaning until I open it myself. It is instinctively felt. I am a human inclination.”

Luin grinned.

“Because you are like that too.”

“ah… … .”

Lilia was finally able to understand Ruin who hadn’t asked anything.

But it feels like being caught.

How can you say that you resemble yourself so naturally?

“I am different from you!”

Ruin looked at Lilia’s eyes, which were constantly shaking, with interest.

Silver short hair.

A clean face without any makeup.

However, her blazing dark green eyes are full of enthusiasm.

A girl with great talent.

But her heart was stuck somewhere.

Just like your old self.

“Of course it is different. You couldn’t achieve straight reason like me. I couldn’t control my emotions. It’s definitely lethal.”

“Fatal… … ?”

“I bet you don’t know what it means to practice imagery with uncontrollable emotions.”

Mental runaway (精神暴走) has far more dangerous results than mana burn.

If you’re lucky, you’ll lose consciousness, and in the worst case, your reason may never return.

“It’s not like a passion for magic. It is just suicidal.”

Ruin’s two eyes stare straight at it as if dissecting it.

Seeing those terrifying eyes, Lilia didn’t even dare to refute.

I felt as if my father, the family head of the Avrel family, was right in front of me.

“I have no intention of asking what your story is, nor do I want to know. But don’t dare show that to your fellow mages. It feels shameful to me to practice magic in such a state.”

Lyria’s whole body trembled at the unbearable sense of humiliation.

Clearly, that was a cool evaluation of himself and the right advice.

but.

It was not something you would hear from a man standing on top of a distant peak and slaughtering other people’s emotions at will.

A look that seems to know everything already.

The indifferent expression that doesn’t even look like that human overlaps with the father’s face again.

Yesterday’s emotions rose to the point of vomiting, but Lilia terribly endured it and clenched her fists.

“you… … really… … Are you free from all emotions… … ?”

that is irreversible to oneself.

Controlling the rage running through his heart seemed like it would only be possible if he gave up being human.

“… … .”

Luin laughed without speaking.

someone will say

If you are a human who has spent tens of thousands of years, you will become a transcendental person free from all emotions.

But that was completely wrong.

Even now, the smile of the dead swordsman was clearly drawn.

The saintess’ cries still lingered in my ears as vividly as yesterday.

All the sorrows of the dead.

All the futility of those who survived.

It still swirls through my heart.

Hatred and fear towards the evil emperor were also weighing down the old soul like a stigma.

I’d rather have everything be a dream, the years I’ve endured so pitifully day by day.

“No way.”

Ruin still smiles with a twisted mouth.

However, at that short word, Lilia felt breathless and suffocated.

Ruin only thought he had overcome his emotions.

But those eyes full of madness.

Those were the eyes of those who lived with emotions more than anyone else, and at the same time those of those who swallowed up their own emotions.

Around the time when Lilia, with that contradictory feeling, revealed an unbearable doubt in her eyes.

“There is no human being free from emotions.”

At those words, Lilia couldn’t hide her dejected heart.

Then, what is the meaning of the conversations that have been conducted so far?

“There are only people who have overcome.”

“… … win?”

how? Seeing Lilia’s eyes as if asking, Ruin pointed out the academy with her gaze.

“To face it without running away. The beginning is from that, Lilia.”

Lyria’s burning eyes followed Ruin’s gaze.

It wasn’t that he was offended by his words or that his pride was hurt.

‘escape… … .’

In the eyes of that guy called Ruin, did he look like a human who just ran away?

It’s a disappointment to yourself.

In an instant, Lilia put the teacup down.

‘I’ll show you. That I didn’t run away.’

Midsummer’s afternoon.

That’s how Lilia headed for her family, the famous magical family, the Abrel family.

Ruin was watching the place she left with calm eyes.

* * *

“What, what? that guy? Were you at the academy all vacation?”

Zed’s cry of admiration or surprise.

The cadets with no rank who returned to the academy after summer vacation were all staring at the playground with expressions of disbelief.

Cheek Chuck-

Ruin is almost running at full speed.

“That guy! body… … !”

Ruin’s body exposed with his shirt off was reminiscent of a knight cadet.

“Crazy, did you build a body like that in just one month?”

Jed was afraid now.

There is something called a human body that can be understood, but his body lacked the humanity it should have.

Extremely clear muscle lines that can’t be found in fat.

His sculpted body was like looking at a piece of art, and it was hard to even express the overwhelming feeling in words.

“Not one month. It’s half a year. Every single day.”

When Shiron bit his lip and let out a heavy voice, the cadets also remembered Ruin before summer vacation.

“that’s right. As soon as he entered the school as a substitute, he did such an amazing thing.”

Severon’s voice was close to admiration.

Now, Ruin’s running speed did not slow down no matter how much he ran.

The stride, breathing, and movement were all undisturbed, so the feeling of being exhausted was gone.

“Why are you training your body like that? Isn’t that too much for a mage? No matter how hard I try to understand, that case is severe.”

Shiron remembered Ruin’s insignificant body.

So at first, I acknowledged and supported Ruin’s efforts.

However, the story was different if the body ignored that humanity now.

If you weren’t going to become a knight, it would be more meaningful to put that effort into magic.

But then.

“Me, crazy!”

“Handstand!”

The cadets’ astonishment followed.

Didn’t Ruin suddenly start doing a handstand and run around the field as it was?

Judging from the skill of his movements and his speed, he must have been doing that crazy thing all vacation.

Shiron shook his head.

“I’m going to get really sick of it.”

It was pure wonder towards Ruin’s desperate mental strength.

It wasn’t something a normal human could do.

While Shiron and the others were admiring it, Shurie’s sharp scream was heard from behind.

“Kyaaah!”

He was covering his face, but why was the gap between his fingers so wide open?

Shurie’s pupils, revealed through her fingers, quickly ran over Ruin’s body as if doing a mana scan.

The same goes for the other girls arriving one after another.

They screamed and made a fuss, but none of them could take their eyes off Ruin.

“for a moment? Ruin guy! for this?”

“Ah, can you?”

Only then did Ruin realize that the cadets had arrived.

It was the time when he, quickly shaking off sweat and wearing a jacket, returned to the dormitory with a nonchalant face.

“uh? Lee, Lyria!”

Lillia is slowly walking towards the Faculty of Magic.

Shurie, who happily ran over and looked at Lilia, stiffened as it was.

The grain of magical power that emanates from it.

Cold eyes that can’t read emotions.

It feels as if every aspect of the person you knew has changed in an instant.

Looking at Lilia’s face revealed under the thick shadow of the hood, Shurie asked anxiously.

“If something bad happened… … .”

However, Lilia only had cold eyes shining, but did not say anything.

Lyria’s atmosphere was so overwhelming that Shurie couldn’t ask any more.

Bubbly.

Lyria walked with a calm stride and stopped in front of Ruin.

“… … face to face. What next?”

Luin just laughed quietly.