Bye-Bye

Until today, I was a person with no appetite due to indigestion, but by the evening, I had become an early pregnant person with morning sickness.

As I continue to look at the ultrasound images, Choi Sung-hoon has been talking to me.

“Because you are in the early stages of your pregnancy, you need to be well rested and fully stable. I hope you don’t go to work from now on.”

“I won’t be able to request a vacation right away, so I’ll call the boss tomorrow and tell him I’ll be taking a break.”

I sympathized with Choi Sung-hoon’s words because I am a recessive Omega who has been taking all kinds of drugs. The truth is that I’m considering leaving the company, but I didn’t say anything because I was afraid of burdening Choi Seong-hoon.

He left the hospital room, saying he would adjust his business trip schedule. When I was alone, I looked at the ultrasound image and took the photos.

First, I sent a picture to the boss and made a phone call. The boss congratulated me and told me to take a break tomorrow and return on Monday. He asked about the hospital’s location and said that he would pay me a visit later.

After that, I sent it to Won-jo and shared it on social media. I attached an ultrasound picture, a baby emoticon wrapped in a swaddling bag, and a heart emoticon. Immediately there were several comments and my phone rang.

The names of my ex-boyfriends on the screen bothered me a little.

While I was refusing to answer each phone call, Won-jo sent a message.

Won-jo [???]

I replied right away.

[Hey, I’m pregnant with Choi Seong-hoon’s child. Choi Seong-hoon is going to marry me]

Won-jo […;]

Won-jo [Are you filming a morning drama? ]

Won-jo [It’s only been 7 hours since you broke up… ] 

Only seven hours? Unbelievable.

The day felt too long.

As I remembered things from this morning to this evening, my body became tired in an instant.

I lay down on the bed with the ultrasound picture in my hands. As I alternated between looking at the drop of sap and the bean-like fetus in the ultrasound picture, the door to the hospital room opened.

Choi Sung-hoon entered the room with a frown on his face.

“We moved up the entry, but we couldn’t delay the departure date. While I am away, the writer will be by your side.”

“The writer?”

“My mother.”

“No, no. Don’t do that.”

I became contemplative and shook my head quickly in response to his words.

Choi Sung-hoon’s parents think I’m not a good fit for their son… I couldn’t meet them because I’m pregnant now and need to avoid stress.

“You don’t need to be worried about me here. They’re probably tired from their trip, so tell them to rest. I’ll tell Won-jo to come. He’ll probably come because he’s unemployed.”

Choi Sung-hoon frowned openly.

“Should I call Sung-hyun?”

“No, He said he’d be busy with college.”

“If I tell him to come, he will come.”

Choi Sung-hoon, who hates Won-jo, decided to sacrifice his younger brother. I didn’t stop Choi Sung-hoon because it was fine if it was Sung-hyun.

Choi Sung-hoon sat on the bed and gazed down at me with warm eyes. I liked the person who was angry like fire before, but I also liked Choi Seong-hoon, who was now as warm as the spring sun.

Choi Sung-hoon tried to help me as soon as I got up. I sat across from him.

“Let’s decide the names of the fetus first. Do you have anything in mind?”

“…Isn’t it too early to decide on a name?”

“What do you mean. I need a name to call it. I couldn’t just call it the fetus every time it did something.”

Choi Sung-hoon’s warm eyes fell again. I avoided that complicated gaze by looking down at the ultrasound image. The fetus, who was white against a black background, was so cute and lovely.

“Cute.”

Sigh…

I was trembling with the ultrasound picture.

“You look so cute. You look like a bean. I’ll call you Kongkongi (beans).”

“…”

“Look at the buried face. So cute… Shall I change the name to Gyomdaengi (cutie)? Which one do you like, Kongkongi or Gyomdaengi, Choi Sung-hoon ssi?”

Choi Sung-hoon didn’t look at the ultrasound image; instead, he fixated on my face.

“Anything Seo-yu ssi wants. I like anything.”

“We have to decide together. Choi Sung-hoon ssi will also call it with the name.”

“…I see.”

Choi Seong-hoon pondered two candidates for the fetus name. It appears that making a decision is difficult for someone who was as sharp as a knife like him.

“What about another name? In an ordinary name.”

“Um, if it’s hard to choose, shall we go with Gyomdaengi (cutie)? Because it’s so cute. Gyomdaengi (cutie), try saying it.”

“… I like Kongkongi (beans).”

“Yeah, I like it too. Kongkongi.”

Choi Sung-hoon made a wrinkle on the forehead and chose it. I also liked Kongkongi, so I decided to give it this nickname. I immediately sent a message to Won-jo.

[My name is Kongkongi~~~~]

And I uploaded it on social media and edited my profile to be [Kongkongi]. I know it was decided too quickly, but it seemed that my heart wouldn’t be restless if this was the case.

I changed my profile picture to the ultrasound image, but I kept getting calls and had to reject them in an inconvenient manner.

“Seo-yu ssi.”

“Yes?”

Choi Sung-hoon, who was watching my actions, held out his hand. I handed him the phone after he pointed it out with his eyes. Choi Sung-hoon naturally rejected the incoming call and blocked it right away. Then he went into the call log and rejected each call one by one. For a brief moment, I was taken aback by the absurdity.

“What are you doing now?”

“Blocking out the trash that Seo-yu ssi had encountered in the past. It’s a lot more than I expected.”

“No, excuse me.”

“I have endured this for a long time. Please bear with me even if I don’t have the right to do so. I’m going to block them all and return the phone to you.”

Choi Sung-hoon shamelessly continued to block.

I rolled my eyes because I was dumbfounded next to him. What was ridiculous was that my heart was pounding at this shameless behavior.

Haa… So…

Overbearing…

If Choi Sung-hoon returns my phone, I’ll look into when I can begin having sex while pregnant…

* * *

Sex seems to be possible only after a while.

Professor Chae, the doctor, returned in the evening and told me that I would have to stay in the hospital for at least another month. I wanted to ask if it was really that serious, but I didn’t because I was afraid it was.

The doctor predicted that various tests would continue for several days. There was a test that require me to take a medicine today in order to be able to do a test a few days later, so I ate some medicines after eating.

“We’ll do a few more tests as the number of weeks of the fetus increases. I’ll do my best, but-.”

“It’s not the fetus. It’s Kongkongi.”

I cut off the doctor’s words. And he rested his face on Choi Sung-hoon’s hard forearm, who was listening with a stiff face.

“We decided together. It’s Kongkongi.”

“… So you already named… the fetus.”

The doctor was so surprised that he couldn’t speak properly. The doctor’s eyes looking at Choi Sung-hoon were shaking as if an earthquake had occurred. Choi Sung-hoon had his usual blunt eyes.

“The fetus name, don’t you feel it’s too early?”

“I didn’t even know it existed until now. It’s already been at least 11 weeks, but it’s rather late.”

“However, in this situation, we don’t know what will happen.”

“What do you mean you don’t know? Kongkongi goes well with both girls and boys.”

I answered, but the doctor was only looking at Choi Sung-hoon. I really didn’t like him in many ways.

Choi Sung-hoon put his finger on my lips as I clenched them. As if I had been blunt, he looked at me with a warm gaze and said.

“You need a name to call it. Because every time it did something, I can’t call it a fetus.”

Choi Sung-hoon’s expression, which was exactly what I said earlier, was warm and gentle.

“… Director.”

However, my anxious heart was not comforted. Because the doctor’s face froze even more when he heard that answer.

“Let’s talk for a moment.”

The doctor called only Choi Sung-hoon outside. I didn’t like it and hoped Choi Sung-hoon would reject it, but Choi Sung-hoon stood up without saying anything.

“I’ll be right back.”

He went out with the doctor and caressed me with his finger in my mouth.

I had to suffer from anxiety and ominous thoughts when I was left alone.

‘So, just in case don’t give it any affection.’

‘You must remember, Director. Don’t give it any affection…’ 

The doctor arrived and started saying things that made me nervous right away. It was a word that bothered me so much.

What does it mean to not give affection? Does it have nothing to do with me? A work story that only they know. If this was not the case…

I bit my lip.

After stroking my lower abdomen and looking at the ultrasound picture once, I couldn’t stand it and got up.

I put on my slippers and slowly pushed the IV stand toward the door. When I put my ear close to the closed door, I could hear a voice, but it was too small to understand.

They’ll notice if I open the door, but I’m curious about the contents…

I whined after hitting my head against the door, but I eventually gave up and turned around because all I could hear was whispering.

“Ordinary people are different from you, Director!”

But then I heard the doctor outside the door shouting. I simply stopped.

“You usually become attached quickly and are devastated when it is taken away.” The director should be aware of this, especially for people who experience severe emotional ups and downs.”

I put my hand over my mouth to keep even my breathing from leaking out.

… After a while, Choi Sung-hoon answered.

“I know. I know…”

Choi Seong-hoon’s voice was muffled. As if speaking from the depths of the abyss.

I walked over to the bed. I lay down carefully and covered my neck with a blanket.

I searched for ‘drugs I took without knowing I was pregnant’ and ‘contraceptives while pregnant’ on my cell phone, but I soon stopped.

I remembered a heartbeat graph that was barely moving in a silent hospital room.

Even if I wanted to know what the doctor and Choi Sung-hoon were talking about, I couldn’t.

I put my hand on my lower abdomen. It was too flat to have a life inside. I didn’t realize I was pregnant because I’ve been using contraception regularly and never paid attention to the signs. I would have felt something strange if my stomach had been showing a little more, but I never imagined it.

But I should have known.

I should have known if no one else did. He must have been furious at me for tormenting Kongkongi so badly.

It was all my fault.

I wiped away the stinging tears as quickly as I could. Choi Sung-hoon has a lot of money, so he would go to any length to use the best medical technology. I was sorry to hold him accountable for what had occurred as a result of my fault, but there was nothing I could do but hope.